The monster living in my head - Marcy

Believe it or not, I am not the most confident person in the world. There are certain things I know I am good at:

• I make an awesome Tortilla Soup
• I am am a good friend
• I am good at my job
• I am a good wife, daughter, sister and doggie mom

Likewise, there are things I know I am not good at:

• I can perform only the simplest math
• I cannot sew
• I have no musical ability whatsoever (despite my secret desire to be in a Broadway musical one day)

It's those things in the middle that cause me angst. Things that I can do but am neither good or bad at. While my non-athletic friends probably don't see it this way, I know that I will never excel in any of the three disciplines of triathlon.

I am a decent swimmer, biker and runner, but for me, none of it is natural. I so envy those athletes who make it look so easy. For me, it is work, but fortunately, it is work I enjoy doing, at least most of the time.

But, is it enough? 27 weeks to go. That's a lifetime. Why am I doubting myself? Can I do this? Will my body hold up? Today I am beating myself up because I fell short of my plan for the week.

OMG - Shut up Marcy!

So you fell a little short this week. Big Freakin Deal! Suck it Up Buttercup!

I swam, biked or ran 8 hours this week. That is nothing to hang my head about.

I can and will do this, but be prepared, there will be meltdowns to come!